| Not dead. |
[Apr. 24th, 2010|10:32 pm] |
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The hamster's still running. |
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| My Mind is a River at Dusk |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|08:45 pm] |
I'm such a horrible procrastinator. Whenever I put the classical on, I begin to write and the wheel in my head keeps spinning. I have a book staring me in the face and all I can think about is that last cup of coffee. No, I lie.
What plagues me is my inability to open up to these online communities. Lord behold, I keep myself at a distance for good reason. I'm sure everyone has dealt with this at some point or the other. I would love to embrace everyone and trust, however each of us has been duped before. Each of us has had to worry about it coming back to our personal lives. I realize some just don't care, however I would find it a major hindrance to my already busy schedule. Honestly, do I need to add public relations and damage control to my list of things to do? The answer is "no".
As I get older, I see what has become of me and where I am going. It's tough, because I'm still carrying out the same agenda it seems. However, certain support mechanisms are missing and at times, the void of their being is so apparent. I count my blessings for the amazing and understanding friends I have around me, especially the one's I've found again. Yet, there are still things I don't understand and pray I can make a little more sense with insight.
This is my catharsis and relief.
Thanks for reading.
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| Enter the Wasteland has arrived! |
[Mar. 13th, 2009|11:33 pm] |
The new Dead Lotus Society EP can be heard at www.myspace.com/thedeadlotussociety !!!
Took long enough!
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| Death |
[Jun. 17th, 2008|08:48 pm] |
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My best friend killed herself yesterday. I'm swimming through all varieties of denial, grief and anger. She's dead and never coming back, I just need to accept it, but it just doesn't seem real.I can't think straight and just need to end everything here. Fuck. |
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